bend but dont break

sometimes i sit in my room all by myself thinkin of ways to make the time fly.

waitin for brighter days as if i were still a lil child.

they say the older you get the more responsibilites you have.

my attitude is ambivalent. my mind is confused. my heart has so much love.

but there are days when i still have the blues.

i feel like an outcast cuz at times i can be a tad bit anti-social.

exaggeration procrastination and sarcasm is a must.

while i give grimey looks and the hostility builds up.

no one understands because i dont take the time to communicate.

jus keepin everythin bottled up while my mind, body and soul suffocates.

friends come and go. family members the same.

heart felt gratitude and still dont have anythin to conclude.
feels like im dyin inside. although blood is runnin through my veins.

so i smile although the pain still remains.

through trials and tribulations im still optimistic.

theres much pressure on this black girl to not be another statistic.

the one who is unemployed, pregnant & drops outta school.

but mommy definitely didnt raise no fool.

livin in a sheltered box, where my dreams are shattered.

this egotistical world where the white supremacy still occurs.

where the judicial system sucks, and amendments arent fulfilled.

where drugs and crime take over the city where i once lived.

but mentally my mind is in another place. on a hiatus far from my current status.

i have been through so much to not try to accomplish the goals ive set.

whether i fail many times, ima dust myself off and try again.

my words fly on paper as if im an eagle soarin high.

to express myself verbally helps, although i still cry.

sometimes i dont know where to turn, dont know what to do.

this life i have so many people try to have an analytical view.

but no one knows really what ive been through.
in my mind are vivid pictures, great imagery although my imagination fades.

bend but dont break is all i keep hearin mommy say.
but mommy cant see that she raised me the right

although i put a good fight. gotta make mommy proud is all i wanna do.

bend but dont break cuz i cant fail this time.

gotta lot to accomplish in this life of mine. bend but dont break cuz i gotta be strong.

jus tryna figure out where things all went wrong.

bend but dont break is all mommy say.

mommy ima bend but i promise i wont break.

[pe.es] "the proper office of a friend is to side with you when you are in the wrong. nearly anybody will side with you when you are in the right."---mark twain