no resolutions..

the new year is comin and im not plannin on doing much. resolutions are whack. theyre like promises...if you can keep them, then whats the point? seems like ive lost so much this year!

oh em gee...i have the weirdest shyt going on in my life right now...

secret love by kelly price is playin right now as i type this blog =]
i love this song, i love REAL music....
i MiSS REAL MUSiC....

this bull crap they play on the radio is WHACK!

i cant hide the way im feeling [i N S i D E] the pain is killin me cuz i wanna let the world know its you im [L O V i N]

people are gettin a lil outta hand...ex boyfriends are ridiculous...friends are jerks. associates are even bigger ones. family is still the same...lovin and supportin me unconditionally!

ugh i need to update my ipod because my old ipod somebody stole...and 188 songs on there so far isnt gonna do a damn thing for me lol

christmas was ok, i cried...this is the FiRST christmas EVER that ive been away from my brother...and it kills me...effs me up deep inside...to the point where i wanted nothing, wanted to take all gifts back, wanted to cry all day and lay in a fetal position in my bed in the dark!

so where do i go from here? 2009 has been nothin but hell for me well at least sometimes..

i lost my brother due to someone else's stupidity. i fell in love quickly, fell out of it slowly. i lost my best friend due to the love. got into a car accident & STiLL suffer back pains from it. drove from maryland for the first time. i cut my hair! learned that some friendships are not meant to be broken [tink & shake] *tears* and those that disappeared were never meant to be. learned that everyone is NOT my FRiEND once again....& majority of those people are people that ive known for years and years. i guess they say its true when you NEVER really know a person =[

my heart ♥ got broken...my ex boyfriends want me back. im tired of it all! i cant hide from my feelings anymore, but im over the "boyfriend" thing. if it happens, it does. but not anytime soon. more focused on makin [tresz]™ happy =] there are girls that dont like me...dudes dont like me...and this is over people i dont even go with lol idk im not worried...just tell em why you mad son? lol oh yea & i gave a [F R i E N D S H i P] a chance with someone who i paid no M i N D too! glad i did what i did, cuz i cherish his friendship with everything we share & i mean everything from the laughs, layin on his chest while we watch tv, hugs, and enjoying his company PERiOD.

its out in the [O P E N] our cover is [B L O W N] && i dont care who really knows...

awwwww you're mad?---theres an app for that!

& yes those are my REAL eyeLASHES ; -)